Psychology

    The first answer to your question after reading this blog is I know it all, atleast till yesterday.

    Unless you give back the pain people will come back to give you more. 

Its good to digest

Its hard to digest to leave something atleast temporarily, which you know for sure that you will be a success in it.

yes ofcourse for the present situation it is hard to stomach.

But all these thins may end up eating up your life.

Mostly I end up thinking about the injustice happened to me that was a result due to me giving up the fight just to make the relation to continue.

Just read about it in the newspaper it will drain your self dignity.

It may be a temporary victory to them but seeing my pitiable self, I worry myself.

Just Remembering

Just remembering the words, If you are vexed and feel a injected feel to change, just make sure you are not surrounded by morons..

The selfish game

I am employed, but that doesn't mean I am happy in the current work.  That depends on the people who surround you.  The morons, the crazy one, the selfish, the watever type guy, I am here to work gal and others.

The most pathetic state of any person working in these surroundings is the level of mental agony he goes through especially if he is a intelligent person..

Intelligent persons can work better, can learn better yes they are good at things but if they are single like me and have the ability to study the subconscious mind of other people, he can go dig a grave and rest in it for better.

One day in the start of the night shift I asked about the transportation to be done on that night,  Person 1 who is the dispather told me it is not required.  And person 2 told me it is not required after person1.

So that was not done on the night shift of that particular night.

I dont' have to do that particular task because I am not the dedicated resource to do it.

A call came to me in the middle of next day from next level agent. Did you do transportation or not?? My answer was the truth no?? the obvious next question came from him, Why?. Because it was not required on Saturday.  The transportation was not done on Saturday early morning which is Friday night shift.

I called the person2 and said these things, he again told the same thing that it don't have to be done..

When I was discussing this with another women (Because things went worst with me in the middle of the limelight) next level agent, person2 came in the middle and told her that the transportation should have been done.

Shouldn't I kill that selfish Bastard???????????????????????????????????????

When are you yourself

When you are yourself in your life, you need to get embrassed of many silly questions which comes out of people's silly judgement out of your life.  And I am sure these judgements about you by them will be half cooked which they might think that they are correct.

They make judgements and go with their judgements which is very difficult to change from that cults.

While you make or have made judgements it will be based on their situations which will ultimately tell you that they are not the reasons for the mistakes.

Ultimately you expect the same kind of analysis from them which will never happen due to their mosquito brain and end up being miserable.

I am incomplete without you

I can't think whether I have a girl friend or not, both the situations would be horrible in my life.

I need a girl who is only for me, one and only for me.  She should hug me, kiss me when I am in turbulence, she should pour her love into me.

Please don't tell the age old ideas like I should behave to the girl like this for me to get this.  It is in my blood already.

She should be my guide my deity my obsession my passion my anger my smile my fear my strength, add everything if I missed something.

Can I see her in banglore, in hp office, or in some other place in banglore itself or in some other state.  Where can I see her.

She is as beautiful as the milk moon dipped in sugars, as sweet as even an ant gets diabetic.  I am what she.

I am her.

I think this is the time to give back the gift to give to the owner.

I never asked this gift, even the gift should be returned in a hard manner and in soft manner as it came to me.

I have started to add a tiny bit of the whole gift.

I hope the owner finds joy and accepts the gift and cries.